Happy days

its really odd. my life is in this hot and cold phase right now. On one side of things I am on the extream side of happy and on the other I would like nothing more than to jump off of Macenzie Tower to my human pancake death.

I'm really happy because I'm in love with a boy who says that he loves me. Because I feel safe and cared for

I'm scared and depressed because I screwed up this term at school with my inability to focus in the begining and right when I thought I had some focus back I lost it again, fucking up some of my finals. Because I'm hurting my friends and because I'm scared of so many things. But all of that is material for Cold and Sharp so I shant rant about it here

Good things going on right now;
-its warmer than the hellish -25 it was a few days ago, and yes I know that it shall get worse and colder but I like this little bitty of warmth that we have now
-I get hugs...constantly from so many people, its amazing
-I have hope for a briter tommorow, and that has driven me for a lot time, hopefully it can still drive me now
-I have people who love me...I think, and thats a nice thought to have

so thats enough light to fight back the dark
right?